《Dreaming Or Sinking》歌词

[00:00:02] Dreaming Or Sinking - Hotel Books

[00:00:23] I tried looking into her eyes to make sense of my own life

[00:00:27] But found senseless realisations

[00:00:28] I was reckless and she was justification;

[00:00:31] A vacation from the monotony I lived in

[00:00:34] And avoiding risk felt nice until I realized

[00:00:37] I was avoiding purpose

[00:00:39] And it's all new but I love her

[00:00:40] At least I think because

[00:00:41] I don't want to live so empty

[00:00:45] And I have this tendency to complicate things better

[00:00:47] Than I break things and

[00:00:49] She was somehow caught in the in between

[00:00:51] And forever means forever and that's

[00:00:53] What it will always mean

[00:00:54] And life is a reality except for when it's a dream

[00:00:57] And those are the moments that I can't seem to think

[00:01:00] But I make sense of my mess by making sense of her and me

[00:01:03] And this fear keeps me alive

[00:01:05] This fear of knowing that she could leave me

[00:01:08] And I could try

[00:01:09] But this fear fuels the flames

[00:01:11] That's why I feel like I'm going to die

[00:01:14] Cause she kept a part of me close by and

[00:01:16] I liked it the best I can

[00:01:18] And now that I know who

[00:01:19] I used to be it's hard to be happy with who I am

[00:01:22] And that's where she came in

[00:01:24] A half-baked smile and a love to pretend

[00:01:26] But prior to then

[00:01:27] Love was nothing more to me than a vacation

[00:01:30] A vacant motivation

[00:01:31] To avoid the means it takes to reach any real end

[00:01:34] A sense of salvation

[00:01:36] But also an element of bitter hope

[00:01:38] To cope with the rope that was tied around my neck

[00:01:42] And the saviour I hoped for was chased away

[00:01:44] Way back then

[00:01:45] When I found vices to take the place of all the things

[00:01:48] I wanted to be

[00:01:51] And I lost sight of me

[00:01:52] But I was told I could be anybody

[00:01:54] And I thought

[00:01:55] I could find purpose in loving someone who looks like me

[00:01:58] And I began dreaming or sinking

[00:02:00] Most nights they meant the same thing

[00:02:02] And when that salvation finally found me

[00:02:04] It was traded away for thirty pieces of silver

[00:02:07] Seems like that's not too much

[00:02:08] I guess but I sold my saviour for a whole lot less

[00:02:11] My two best friends

[00:02:12] Acceptance and a mirage of fake happiness

[00:02:15] And now the words I use to cling to as my refuge

[00:02:18] Now torture me in my head

[00:02:19] Forgive them father they know not what they do

[00:02:22] It's funny cause it seems like

[00:02:23] I did every time I lied to you

[00:02:26] And that's my only truth

[00:02:28] That I can't sleep at night

[00:02:29] And I can't get these things right

[00:02:31] And salvation escaped when she came into view

[00:02:33] And now I'm hoping my whole life isn't mistaken as you

[00:02:37] But there's no way of knowing

[00:02:39] When all I'm doing is coping

[00:02:42] With my own pride

[00:02:46] And my past would fight with me hoping I would find truth

[00:02:49] But it's never a good idea to start a fight with a man

[00:02:51] Who has nothing to lose

[00:02:55] And I'm empty

[00:02:56] My heart is caving in

[00:03:00] And for whatever reason

[00:03:03] I finally let somebody in

[00:03:07] And I don't know what love is

[00:03:09] But I'm growing