《Calling You》歌词

[00:00:00] Calling You - KB/Natalie Lauren/Joseph Prielozny/Kevin Burgess/Tyshane Thompson/Natalie Sims/Kenneth Chris Mackey

[00:00:25] It must of been 3AM when the text came in

[00:00:28] The sum of my fears

[00:00:29] My stomach bendin' my thumb was tremblin'

[00:00:31] No pun intended but I wanted to die

[00:00:32] But it's all for myself

[00:00:33] Then it read

[00:00:33] "KB this time it's real homie I can't live"

[00:00:37] It was in all caps

[00:00:39] But I knew he had no caps on his gun or his pills

[00:00:41] So I ripped out the door

[00:00:42] All the covers down on the floor

[00:00:43] No shoes I just walk on my tears

[00:00:45] Callin' him over and over and over again

[00:00:47] While I'm throwing the car in to gear

[00:00:49] How could he be so selfish

[00:00:50] Will this happen felt it

[00:00:52] Why won't he answer answer answer he answered

[00:00:54] "Jason hello "

[00:00:58] Suicide suicide suicide

[00:01:02] Got one in the chamber

[00:01:03] It's waitin' to take you right out tonight

[00:01:06] Don't roll the dice roll the dice roll the dice

[00:01:10] It's all on the table it's all for the takin'

[00:01:11] But what's the odds

[00:01:15] I parked in the street

[00:01:16] At the car with the keys

[00:01:17] Should I call the police

[00:01:18] What if he turns it on me

[00:01:20] Then I looked up it that him over the sink

[00:01:21] I can't think

[00:01:22] My tongue is as heavy as my heart

[00:01:23] I can't speak

[00:01:24] Every time I blink I'm a step closer

[00:01:26] My heart about to burst

[00:01:27] As I close up on the front door

[00:01:28] And give the doorbell a ring

[00:01:30] It was unlocked so I ran to top staircase

[00:01:32] As I stare got a case on the floor

[00:01:34] "Jason open up"

[00:01:35] Continued to knock

[00:01:36] "Jason open up you ain't gotta do this"

[00:01:38] What about the kids

[00:01:39] Don't go Judas you got reason to live

[00:01:41] We could get through this don't give in"

[00:01:43] Then I heard movement

[00:01:44] And a voice I'll never forget

[00:01:45] He said "Stop it stop it

[00:01:48] I'm about to cock it

[00:01:50] You barely called back when I was in Iraq

[00:01:52] Just leave homeboy I got this

[00:01:53] You know the truth is I had to shoot kids

[00:01:56] I'm so guilty (Open the door )

[00:01:58] And God might let it go (Open the door )

[00:02:00] But I'll never forgive me (Jason )

[00:02:02] Why not (I care I care about you)

[00:02:03] The Army never trained me to care

[00:02:05] You don't know the horror of living in a war zone

[00:02:07] Then coming back to civilian affairs

[00:02:09] I made my bed the tables were set

[00:02:11] My wife moved out I don't see my kids

[00:02:13] Everything that gave me meaning is gone

[00:02:15] The grief stays seeded and bleeds to the bone

[00:02:17] I want out "

[00:02:18] Suicide suicide suicide

[00:02:22] Got one in the chamber

[00:02:23] It's waitin' to take you right out tonight

[00:02:26] Don't roll the dice roll the dice roll the dice

[00:02:30] It's all on the table it's all for the takin'

[00:02:32] But what's the odds

[00:02:33] I ain't have a word not a story not a verse

[00:02:38] But the silence

[00:02:39] I'm trying not to make this worse

[00:02:42] I pray and I googled a search

[00:02:43] Nothing from school that will work

[00:02:44] But I grew up in the church so what do I do

[00:02:48] Just fell to my knees and I started to blurt

[00:02:50] I don't understand this I don't understand this

[00:02:52] But you been looking to the **

[00:02:53] And them dancers

[00:02:54] Don't be conned by the Ye

[00:02:56] Nobody in the West got the answers

[00:02:58] Let's get established

[00:02:58] Your life isn't yours to demand it

[00:03:00] You can't do what you please

[00:03:02] Jason I love you

[00:03:02] But the next step is God homie

[00:03:04] You ain't escaping a thing

[00:03:05] You know Jesus he wanted to die in that garden

[00:03:08] Acquainted to man up his sorrows

[00:03:10] But he kept up the fight

[00:03:12] 'Cause he knew joy it was coming tomorrow

[00:03:14] You haven't squeezed that revolver

[00:03:15] 'Cause you know that there's hope

[00:03:16] At the end of the tunnel

[00:03:18] Embrace it don't matter how faint it

[00:03:19] God is not silent please hear what he's

[00:03:26] "Jason "

[00:03:30] 911 what's your emergency

[00:03:30] Yes uh I-I gotta friend

[00:03:31] And uh he's locked himself in the bathroom

[00:03:34] And I just heard a gun go off and I don't know

[00:03:37] Okay calm down sir

[00:03:38] Are you able to get inside the room

[00:03:39] Yeah he he's got me locked out

[00:03:41] Okay can you try to get inside the room

[00:03:43] Hold on I'ma try to

[00:03:45] Sir

[00:03:47] Jason Okay he's-he's not shot

[00:03:50] He dropped the gun but he's passed out

[00:03:51] Sir I'm gonna need you to calm down

[00:03:54] No you calm down Send help quick

[00:04:02] Hope is calling you

[00:04:10] Hope is calling you