《Big Trev》歌词

[00:00:03] i still like to think he was smiling.

[00:00:05] even though i couldn't be there to see it, i hope he understood that we were laughing with him, not at him.

[00:00:10] that there was a fondness amongst us all. he wasn't the joke, he wasn't the monkey in the corner to entertain and dance.

[00:00:16] he was one of us. and i know this wasn't like the time he played tennis without a shirt on.

[00:00:21] and i understand that it wasn't like when he tried to sniff the metal in the middle of his ring binder and the pincers closed on his nose.

[00:00:28] it wasn't even a misheard line retold for the next 10 years or the annoying songs he used to come up with.

[00:00:34] it was meant well. it was meant as i intended.

[00:00:44] and when i'm standing in supermarket aisles, trying to see what's free in what cereal this week or what sauce isn't the spicy one i'm not keen on,

[00:00:51] the image drifts across my mind. but there's something missing.

[00:00:55] i can see him standing by his moped in the front garden, school bag open to pull out his high visibility jacket.

[00:01:02] and i see him pause slightly when he realises that that there is something under the plastic that should have read "ambulance" on the back.

[00:01:09] and there, in crude, biro letters (my crude, biro letters) is the phrase "big trev".

[00:01:25] but when i see it there is no face. not no smile or sneer or scowl, but no face at all. just blackness. just nothing.

[00:01:35] and when i try to imagine it, to force it through with my will, i can't even remember what it should look like.

[00:01:41] and no matter how many times i tell myself that he was fine, that we was laughing and he was fine, what i really believe is only the black hole where the face should be.