《Victim (Album Version)》歌词

[00:05:59] I feel the motion of the car before I open my eyes.

[00:05:59] The air is blue-black, brown-black, black-black.

[00:05:59] Smell of gas, oil, animals.

[00:05:59] I'm in the trunk.

[00:05:59] My wrists and ankles tied.

[00:05:59] Tape over my mouth

[00:05:59] It almost covers my nose

[00:05:59] But i can breathe barely.

[00:05:59] I must have been here for hours,

[00:05:59] Everything's stiff and my head throbs

[00:05:59] Like someone's drumming on china.

[00:05:59] The car stops.

[00:05:59] He turns off the motor -- but there are no traffic sounds.

[00:05:59] No people sounds. No wind. What place has no wind?

[00:05:59] I turn my head towards the sounds

[00:05:59] Like people watch radios when something terrible happens.

[00:05:59] My palms are sweating. Where am I?

[00:05:59] The trunk squeaks as he lifts it up and the sun blinds me.

[00:05:59] He almost looks like a faceless Jesus surrounded by light.

[00:05:59] He pulls me out of the trunk and bangs my head against the door.

[00:05:59] I try to cry out, but it comes like a hum.

[00:05:59] He drags me, half-standing, along a dirt road into a house.

[00:05:59] I can't see any other houses and it looks like a farm.

[00:05:59] The screen door bangs behind me and I feel a deep, deep pressure inside.

[00:05:59] All the rules have changed here.

[00:05:59] I'm dragged down a hall like a bag and I look for a phone, other doors.

[00:05:59] Nothing but bare floors and brown boxes in small rooms.

[00:05:59] He pulls me into the bathroom

[00:05:59] And i almost crack my head as he pushes me onto the floor.

[00:05:59] Tilts his head to the side and gazes at me

[00:05:59] As if i was a pet then walks out.

[00:05:59] I'm lying there for a long time, trying to get the tape off of me.

[00:05:59] My eyes are tearing. I don't make a sound.

[00:05:59] I can't get up and I keep rolling from side to side, trying not to make noise.

[00:05:59] I've got to get him to talk to me.

[00:05:59] If I can get this thing off my face I can talk to him.

[00:05:59] I'll tell him my name.

[00:05:59] Have you killed other women in here?

[00:05:59] I'm thinking you've got hundreds of them nailed down,

[00:05:59] Hung on walls, hanging from ceiling fans

[00:05:59] Swinging dead in summer wind.

[00:05:59] Why did you pick me?

[00:05:59] If I had stayed to finish at the library

[00:05:59] I would have been there twenty minutes longer

[00:05:59] Maybe i'd have been ok.

[00:05:59] Would have rushed into the house, books piled up in my arms like a baby,

[00:05:59] And blurted explanations why i was sorry.

[00:05:59] So sorry I'm late everyone.

[00:05:59] Would you have waited for me anyway?

[00:05:59] Would you have picked another woman?

[00:05:59] Would I have read about her in the paper and said

[00:05:59] Oh my god, i was there that night...

[00:05:59] And called all my friends in a panic.

[00:05:59] Telling them then how much I loved them

[00:05:59] As if i'd never have the chance again.

[00:05:59] I wonder what everyone is doing now. Putting up signs.

[00:05:59] Showing my picture on the evening news. Calling old friends.

[00:05:59] Maybe I'm not even considered missing yet.

[00:05:59] The family will fall apart and my parents will go crazy. Slowly.

[00:05:59] My brother will be so quiet at the funeral and insist the casket be closed.

[00:05:59] (I never even told anyone what kind of funeral I wanted when I died.)

[00:05:59] Maybe years from now they'll find my skeleton

[00:05:59] On the floor here and they'll have to use dental records to identify me.

[00:05:59] My family will say "At least we know now.

[00:05:59] We always hoped she was alive somewhere.

[00:05:59] We just hope she's in peace."

[00:05:59] When I sleep my dreams are crazy -- I'm flying over fields.

[00:05:59] I don't think I sleep for more than twenty minutes and when I wake up,

[00:05:59] It feels like i'm under a heavy blanket. i'm still here.

[00:05:59] As I wake up I hear a dog barking in the distance

[00:05:59] And i think i'm in my parents' house in south carolina.

[00:05:59] When I open my eyes, there's a shotgun pressed between them.

[00:05:59] I'll never get married.

[00:05:59] I'll never have kids.

[00:05:59] I'll never go to Europe.

[00:05:59] I'll never learn to play piano.

[00:05:59] I'll never write a book.

[00:05:59] The last thing I hear is a click